I have 3 words that best describe this weekend; busy, busy, busy! Friday I jumped off the wagon and didn't look back until this morning. 3 day of random eating...
Friday started off on the right track. Made it through to lunch with a slimfast and a subway sandwich. It was after lunch that it all gets a little hazy. We had a Back 2 School distribution to do. I was out running an errand and was super hungry. In and Out called to me and I answered the call. After picking up some snacks for the teen night, I hung out downstairs with teens waiting to get their school supplies, trying to keeping them occupied we ate the snacks. Went out to dinner with friends after and ate some more. My tummy was not happy with me by the end of the night.
Saturday we headed to family camp and once again I started off with the best of intentions. For breakfast I ate fruit. For snack, ate some more fruit. At lunch I was already tired, so I just grabbed what was on the table. Dinner, a few hours later, I was even more tired so I grabbed the foods that I liked. Only ate a 1/4 of my burger, but had 2 brownies and all the other stuff too. Had to go grocery shopping, picked out healthy food for myself and then went to McDonalds for some french fries and a diet coke.
Sunday did the healthy breakfast, but that was as far as I made it. I knew my day would be busy and semi long again, so I just ate food that was convenient and fast.
I know there were different choices I could have made when it came to some meals, but business and tiredness got the best of me.
Today I am trying to get myself back on track, but even as I sit here now I want to just give in. How do you beat the feeling to give in? I am going to try my hardest not to, but not sure how it will turn out.
God, give me your strength! I don't want to keep eating like this. I need your help! Amen
My dear friend, Rae,
ReplyDeleteWhat you don't do is give up. Don't beat yourself up. I never thought I could ever quit cigarettes, but I did it. Gave up alcohol and men and a terrible relationship addiction. You can live without those things, Food and being a compulsive overeater is a whole different ball game. It takes "won't" power and constant discipline. I've missed out on so much of life because I'm a compulsive overeater. Rae, you think you can't do this...that once again you've failed. But so long as you are still fighting, you haven't lost the war. Only a battle. A combat Marine once told me...We get knocked to our knees a few times , but we fight pretty good from that position. Never give up.
I'm praying for all of us that we are going to win and have fun on our journey. Love you much, Rae.
Unknown seems to be a good name for me. Sometimes I feel invisible. So, this is Carol, the Unknown one. To quote a line from whoever first said this....I feel your pain $:>)
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